What should we do?

Tell me what should I do
My heart hurt a lot now
My eyes are close to tear
Is it a war between you and me?

You appear whenever I get hurt
Don't you know you makes it worse?
When I see your triumphant smile
My heart feels as though it falls

But when I see you my tears suddenly stop dropping
I know perfectly well you won't offer your hand to help
Even if it hurt I will pretend that everything is okay
I will put the same triumphant smile on my face

I will keep my tears inside for sake of my pride
I will keep my smile and bravely endure pain
I won't ever say that this become to hard for me
I will keep all my scream until I get to home

I don't want a war between you and me
I know instead of hate should be love
Where should I search for our warmth
It hurt the most... We're so cold inside.

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Co powinniśmy zrobić?

Powiedz mi co powinnam zrobić
Moje serce teraz tak bardzo boli
W moich oczach tworzą się łzy
Czy to wojna między nami?

Pojawiasz się kiedy tylko zostaję zraniona
Wiesz, że wszystko staje się cięższe do zniesienia
Kiedy widzę twój triumfalny uśmiech
Moje serce chyli się ku upadkowi

Jednak kiedy cię widzę, moje łzy nagle przestają płynąć
Wiem doskonale, że nie zaoferujesz mi pomocnej dłoni
Nawet jeśli to boli, będę udawać, że wszystko jest w porządku
Moja twarz przybierze ten sam triumfalny uśmiech

Dla mojej dumy zatrzymam w sobie łzy
Będę się uśmiechać dzielnie znosząc ból
Nigdy nie powiem, że to dla mnie zbyt wiele
Zatrzymam mój krzyk do chwili, gdy dotrę do domu

Nie chcę wojny między nami
Zamiast nienawiści powinna być miłość
Gdzie powinnam szukać twego ciepła?
Najbardziej boli to, że wewnątrz jesteśmy tak chłodni

I'm afraid

There comes a days when I am so sad
Without a reason I feel like cry so hard
I feel like I have a broken heart
But still I keep this feelings inside

I do not want to be crybaby in your eyes
I want to be strong so I  hold my smile so tight
Even if I feel like am falling down so deeply
I try to find place where my feelings can hide

There are days when I whould like to run away from everything
I would like to go somewhere where no one can find me
I would like to disappear from my precious world for I while
But why I am so afraid that then no one would like to find me?

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Są dni, kiedy jestem bardzo smutna
Bez powodu mam ochotę płakać
Czuję się tak, jakbym moje serce było złamane
Ale nadal ukrywam to w sobie

 Nie chcę być beksą w twoich oczach
Chcę być silna więc mocno trzymam uśmiech
Nawet jeśli czuję się tak, jakbym upadała
Próbuję znaleźć miejsce, gdzie mogę schować uczucia

Są dni, kiedy chciałabym od wszystkiego uciec
Udać się do miejsca, gdzie nikt mnie nie odnajdzie
Chciałabym zniknąć z mojego świata chociaż na chwilę
Jednak tak bardzo boję się, że nikt nie będzie mnie szukał

I love you so...

I love you so...
But I don't know why
What is special in you
I never thought about


When I look at our past
I see it all in another light
There are good and bad memories
There was laugh but also a lot of cry

When I look at our past
We were never perfect
But when I look deep in your beautiful eyes
Why do I feel like we are destined to be together?

Just when I see your smile
My heart beats so fast
Your lovely gentle voice
 Fell deeply in my mind

I will love you so...
Without a reason to
Without a lot of thought
Will you love me too?

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Kocham Cię tak...

Kocham cię tak...
Chociaż nie wiem dlaczego
Co jest w tobie takiego
Nigdy się nad tym nie zastanawiałam

Kiedy patrzę w naszą przeszłość
Widzę wszystko w innym świetle
Sąd dobre i złe wspomnienia
Był śmiech, ale również były i łzy

Kiedy patrzę wstecz
Nigdy nie byliśmy idealni
Ale kiedy patrzę ci głęboko w oczy
Dlaczego czuję jakbyśmy byli sobie przeznaczeni?

Wystarczy że widzę twój uśmiech
Moje serce zaczyna bić szybciej
Twój przyjemny, delikatny głos
Zapadł głęboko w moim umyśle

Będę kochać cię tak...
Zupełnie bez powodu
Bez zbytniego rozmyślania
Czy będziesz mnie kochał?

Someone I love

I finally found

And it was like a spell

I finally found

And my heart suddenly melt

You make feel this way

Out loud  I wanna sing

I'm going crazy

And I don't know

Don't know

If is it love

I am not sure

But I think I want to know

I am not sure

If is it already love

I never felt this way

Maybe I'm  too scared to say

I'm falling for you

But for today I really

don't know love

One thing for now

I don't want you to go away

I want you to stay

For ever by my side

I just want to know

If you feel the same as me

If your heart beat so fast

When we meet

I wanna thank

Thank you

For being

Here for a while

Like today by my side

Thank you for your smile

Really I want to say that I'm thankful

But throat keep my words

And I can't

Say anything at all

However one day

I know I'll find my strenght

However one day

I will say out loud what I feel

I hope for that day

I'll see your happy smile

That day

Will be the best in my life

I wanna thank

Thank you

For being

Here for a while

Like today by my side

Thank you for your smile

Really I want to say that I love you

But throat keep my words

I wanna thank

Thank you

For being

Here for a while

And even this while

Made you've

Become someone whom

I love

Jut start

Hi.

Tonight I'm starting with my blogging here. I'm not good in english so I have to improve it soon. I hope that I can do it as well as I hope that you can understand me even now. I won't add here a personal contact or even photos of my face so don't wait for it. If you want to know me more or talk to me just don't be afraid of writing comment!

I'm sleepy now but I know that if I went to bed I'll cant fall asleep. Just like always. I wonder if you have insomnia sometimes too.

By the way.
I'm listening Ft Island "A Person Who's Closer To Tears". I hope to hearing more of theirs songs cause I like sound of Lee Hong Ki voice. His voice have this "something" inside it and it doesn't matter in what language he is singing it just sound amazing for me. 
Oh! Of course that's don't mean that I'm crazy fan of them but just... I like some of theirs songs.
Do you know FT ISLAND?

Oh I have to go to sleep friends. I have wake up early tomorrow.

See you soon!

My poems

Happy outside

I think that even if you walk away
I would like to be happy outside
I would like to smile day by day
Even if I'll be so hard crying inside

It's funny thing
But I'll be strong
I'll be wait for spring
Cause everything goes on

I won't let you see me crying
I won't beg you to come back
Even if because of you I'll be dying
I'll pretend that I don't miss you yet

It is not funny at all
Cause even if I thing about it
I know that so hard I will fall
But I will my broken heart cure bit by bit

When it hurt... when it's so bad
I can just cure it... I can forget
It's nothing... just love, right?
I can be happy... even if it's hurting inside.

Only saying

Boy I don't need you to send me flowers
And still repeating that everything is okay
When you know it is not like that at all
Even if it is hard to endure it I'll be fine
I won't ever let you see me cry

I hate silence which is killing "us"
Tell me exactly what do you want
Will it be okay in this way?
When I'll  promise you
I'll hide my wounds inside
You won't ever see me cry

I know... I will keep seeing you
Through all my way home
I will keep you behind my eyelid
Although when I came back there
I will trying to forget everything
Just trowing you from my mind

They keep saying "it's okay"
I don't need them to support me
I don't believe them... anyway
But "Everything is ok" they saying again
Saying the same way like you used to do
It shouldn't hurt but why is it that hard to endure?

I would like a lullaby

 I would like to hear your voice now
Lullaby which you'll wisper near to my ear
Or hitting the guitar chord
As if heartbeat

It's a little bit hurt to me
I hear only silence
I feel a little bit lonely
Isn't it sad?

Still I know you'll come back to me
It's not like you're gone forever
It's only couple of cold nights
It's only couple silent days

I just would like to hear your voice now
Does it mean that I have become a greedy?
But still... Will you come back, right?

Even if... I gave you my heart

 Even if the cold weather will come again
You promised that you'll be by my side
You'll hold my hand
And  never let me cry

The same way when my heart was bleeding
I didn’t  know whence you came
To close the wound by one softly kiss
You melted ice in my heart by smile

Thanks to you I am my old self again
Again, I can sing out loud
And I am not afraid of life
And I am not afraid of love

Even if the cold weather will come
And your hand will become cold as well
Even if  ... but now I do not want to be afraid
I will open my heart for you

Even if one day you break that heart
I know you will do it gently
Therefore, now I'm giving that to you
Even If one day I will paid for that by pain