My poems

Happy outside

I think that even if you walk away
I would like to be happy outside
I would like to smile day by day
Even if I'll be so hard crying inside

It's funny thing
But I'll be strong
I'll be wait for spring
Cause everything goes on

I won't let you see me crying
I won't beg you to come back
Even if because of you I'll be dying
I'll pretend that I don't miss you yet

It is not funny at all
Cause even if I thing about it
I know that so hard I will fall
But I will my broken heart cure bit by bit

When it hurt... when it's so bad
I can just cure it... I can forget
It's nothing... just love, right?
I can be happy... even if it's hurting inside.

Only saying

Boy I don't need you to send me flowers
And still repeating that everything is okay
When you know it is not like that at all
Even if it is hard to endure it I'll be fine
I won't ever let you see me cry

I hate silence which is killing "us"
Tell me exactly what do you want
Will it be okay in this way?
When I'll  promise you
I'll hide my wounds inside
You won't ever see me cry

I know... I will keep seeing you
Through all my way home
I will keep you behind my eyelid
Although when I came back there
I will trying to forget everything
Just trowing you from my mind

They keep saying "it's okay"
I don't need them to support me
I don't believe them... anyway
But "Everything is ok" they saying again
Saying the same way like you used to do
It shouldn't hurt but why is it that hard to endure?

I would like a lullaby

 I would like to hear your voice now
Lullaby which you'll wisper near to my ear
Or hitting the guitar chord
As if heartbeat

It's a little bit hurt to me
I hear only silence
I feel a little bit lonely
Isn't it sad?

Still I know you'll come back to me
It's not like you're gone forever
It's only couple of cold nights
It's only couple silent days

I just would like to hear your voice now
Does it mean that I have become a greedy?
But still... Will you come back, right?

Even if... I gave you my heart

 Even if the cold weather will come again
You promised that you'll be by my side
You'll hold my hand
And  never let me cry

The same way when my heart was bleeding
I didn’t  know whence you came
To close the wound by one softly kiss
You melted ice in my heart by smile

Thanks to you I am my old self again
Again, I can sing out loud
And I am not afraid of life
And I am not afraid of love

Even if the cold weather will come
And your hand will become cold as well
Even if  ... but now I do not want to be afraid
I will open my heart for you

Even if one day you break that heart
I know you will do it gently
Therefore, now I'm giving that to you
Even If one day I will paid for that by pain